~little victories~

I wasn’t going to interrupt my 30 day blogging challenge posts but I really wanted to share this with you…
As you may know I make no secret of the fact that I struggle with depression & take antidepressants (I plan to do a more in depth post about my treatment so far soon) but these past few days I’ve been really struggling. Even though my exams are over I’m still away at university, but a friend of mine cancelled plans (no big deal honestly) and a lot of my flatmates are away and my friend from home that also studies in London has gone back home so I didn’t really have anyone to hang it. Add this to my depression and it’s been a crappy few days (I’m not trying to suggest it’s anyone’s responsibility to occupy/babysit me!)
For the past 3 days I have only left my room twice. I’ve barely eaten (and usually I love the food!). I’ve felt so down that my whole body has physically ached and it’s been a real struggle to not do anything stupid and intentionally hurt myself. Today I woke up feeling just as crappy and almost didn’t leave my bed, but I’m writing this post as I recover from a sweaty session in the gym. It took everything I have but I dragged myself here despite my depression telling me to stay home. Tomorrow’s goal is to get to the supermarket, buy some fresh ingredients and make myself something good to eat.
This probably sounds like such a small thing to most people but to me, it’s a win! And if you’re feeling the same, just remember it’s okay, you got this!

Author: standardmillennialproblems

Second year university student based in London trying to get a 2.1/battle depression/maintain a struggling social life/wear dresses without self-loathing...all whilst making a few witty comments and trying to note them down here.

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